Poetry · Writing

thirty and counting

i worry that i’ve wrote it before

said it before

and the words lose meaning

like white out to a dictionary

i mutter white noise

it’s not that this was my goal

or i over say these words

i don’t want you to question or forget

i don’t believe in ten seconds you’ll forget

it’s the eleventh i want to be remembered

and after the twelfth i’ll be there to hold you

thirty i’ll build you a fort that we can live in

a map will be in your email in the morning

Poetry · Writing

sitting on a borrowed porch

on a porch

not my porch, a quiet family owns this porch

they go away on the weekends

i like to imagine they have a country house so their kids can play-

i feel apart of it when i sit here

the tire swing

star-gazing past our bedtime

never going to sleep cold,

on the porch

i go to sleep tucked in with a kiss on the cheek

but like a dream it’ll end

in the morning they’ll return

and i’ll be gone

Poetry · Writing

between sunset and a canoe

i don’t believe it was a dream

that brought me into your life

it wasn’t a boat dancing in rose petals

it was the warmth of your two arms

reminding me that it’ll be okay

that this job isn’t going to be the end

a rose petal boat ride didn’t bring me here

but i’ll bring you across that river

and will enjoy the view:

a sunset, one that pauses time-


Poetry · Writing

garbage man with an emerald necklace

a palace in comparison;

in comparison to the dump

where i find myself foraging for berries and a necklace

a necklace to present you:

i see it in my dreams, it is beautiful a single gem

the color of a lawn that exist longer then one summer

and i want to put it around your neck,

a present for a princess living in her palace

anyway to distract the fact that i live in the dump

and i want your parents to like me

and i want to be invited back

but i only have the one necklace

Poetry · Writing

hunting the bottom of the pit

i am not a seer

a witch or a god

but i knew i’d be here


falling through the depth with arms outreached

trying to grab onto anything

anything more than the absence of screams of help


for you

is nothing less than colorful

like a rainbow slide with a green hat at the bottom


i don’t want to stop

i worked tirelessly to fall this long and hard

and flying feels like walking over cement

until falling with you

the bottom never comes

not sure it exist

and i love it

Poetry · Writing

cold star

i have seen

the angle of you from a smudged mirror

i’ve never seen you so beautiful

diversity as concealer

brushed in with attitude

not the way you want to be viewed

but the look suits you

been through hell and this revival suits you

you’re going to change the world and i see it in you

it was only smudged for a minute

your beauty will shine through

never been worried for a second

you always pull through

you always will



Poetry · Writing

Jet Fuel

Woke up this morning

With a bright idea

Maybe I can exist

Forever right here:


pulled up with two to my name

nothing but a dream of fame

the lonely girl in the back screamin’ same

i’ll be here longer then you expected

spread all this magic i’ve collected

screamin’ louder then all ya’ll projected

change in the moment

change for the moment

singin’ over this fountain drinkin’ your bestowment

flyin’ high feelin’ real cool(cool)

stylin’ smoke chillin’ i’ll never run out of jet fuel

until I run out of jet fuel


Fate in your hands

While you’re waitin’ for me

I’m already there

Fallin’ in deep

Now is only now

Head back to the ground, dear



Poetry · Writing

loving you correctly

i made a lot of bad choices

you are not one of them

i learned from my mistakes

and i learned how to love you

trial and error to sharpen my teeth

before biting into your skin

if all the blood spilled directly

related to me loving you correctly

i’ll savor every kiss

when your eyes flutter when you’re having a dream

and this is mine;

Poetry · Writing

war on all fronts

the road;

a misunderstanding

broken trust landing

the sign said lover demanding-

a fools game played with fools gold

and i am in debt

not a risk or trust fall

takes money to make money

kitty poster on the wall

a misunderstanding

account overdrawn

a broken trust landing

never a i’ll be right there always a hang on

the sign said lover demanding-

under the red river walk-on

the squandered pawn shop

pumping muscle out of my vessel

traded for a penny for the ferry

jet tail on the sea front gambling on freedom

away from black crossbones away from eden

treason, the road will wash up, defeated