You asked what you mean to me:

I stopped and laughed like a joke

only because I knew you wanted the truth.

It’s like this- I wouldn’t trade you for anything,

million dollars, pass on it-

fame and success, move on it-

the afternoon on a park bench waiting for Raisin to stop bullying the birds,

that’s where I’ll

be.

It’s not simple like a rhyme

or catchy like a tune

because tomorrow you’ll mean more

and the sun will be gone

off to see Mars and it’ll be just you

and me.

What do you mean to me?

The cop to a robber

to lock me down to Earth

so I won’t miss a single sun set

placed bet

listening to Keith Sweat

in a jail cell for two

Blue Moons and-

I keep getting distracted into your eyes.

They remind me of the moon

and I’m the tides.

Wasn’t it going to be you and me and wasn’t it going to be pure

wasn’t it going to be different  and wasn’t it going to be true-

Didn’t you say that?

Weren’t you going to change and weren’t you going to be honest

weren’t you going to pray and weren’t you going to be more-

Didn’t you say that?

All you want is to play at playing god

but I’m falling in, I’m falling out –

Didn’t you say that- Didn’t you say that?

Wouldn’t you want to stay and wouldn’t you want that present

wouldn’t you hold me and wouldn’t you stay the night-

Didn’t you say that?

 

We played the game

we played the part

I wouldn’t expect you to understand me

crossing the line

we broke it apart

I wished I’d asked why you need me.

Enjoy the moment

feel my pain

I doubt you’d release me

jumping the gun

biting my tongue

I never would ask you to forgive me.

And you will never see my side

and I will always think I’m right

But I always regret the night

I told you I would hate you ’til forever.

 

Fluid movement and boom

linger on a few notes taking notes

couple girls drinking moose

getting loose

couple shrooms – couple stories

vibing through a drawn door

she’d bloom

sucking boobs.

Hmmm

where are you

chilling seeking you

moving through being cool

couple shrooms

feeling you – feeling blue

sinking glue

changing tones

singing notes

couple shrooms.

 

Eyes follow

lips chase

entrance making is an art form

love is a chess game.

Pawns litter the dead

knights come up short

princess in the castle

charming the ropes and cutting them lose.

Walk into a Starbucks

vanilla filled intentions

and walking home alone

chased by fear and empty shoes.

Netflix and chill

late nights

a cat and an empty pillow

full of love

The mirror can’t take it anymore

words so cold, so collect, so clean

honesty a waking touch

jealousy is more blinding than love.

And you could be my enemy

and you could be my judge

if you could start remembering all the time that you used up.

A remedy seeking harp

love lapping hands

if I could stop remembering all the time that you used up.

And you could be my enemy

playing both sides

shattering us whole

and you could be my judge

resort of truths

graveyard of lies

and will rest in the middle.

Careful when looking beyond your view

blinded by infinite leisure.

Careful with your obsessions

sayin’ we will never be free.

If you can never change

it’s a deliverance

give up on giving up

you better hold on.

Trust me when I tell you ’bout my own dream

made my mind up long ago.

Trust me that I struggle with my own destruction

building up and letting go.

Look in my eyes

like you mean it

look in my eyes

like a mirror.

Like you mean it

I break

everytime I see your heels

chained to the radiator

lighter in my mouth

fluid tied to your hips.

The hills cover our flames

easier said then done

have me on my knees

open the red sea.

Trace the chalk line

the kiss of life

don’t feed after two

you’ll be my boo

leave with me tonight.

Pushed to the edge

talked ourselves to death

reflection you used to see

never looked alike to me.

Sayin’ what I wanted

not what I needed

going out my mind

good intentions(never good enough).

The dark light

the blazing ocean

you were a kaleidoscope

the future’s anchor.

Get out

of here

turn it around

 

or get out-

can we-

do you want to show me how?

The heat at the bottom

the light at the bottom

you were a kaleidoscope

a kaleidoscope.

 

Hold me

like a alcoholic’s drink

treasure the touch

gentle heart.

Guide into your chambers

carpet burned skin

feeling for the light

palms of pure gold captures.

They’ll pray below

sing below

and watch from a window

and envyv