i never worried
just stayed up all night thinking
long Summer evening
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i never worried
just stayed up all night thinking
long Summer evening
you told me not to worry
about what tomorrow would be like
how we would eat
or how we would pay our bills.
even after you passed;
i always knew
you’d still be looking
over my shoulder
telling me
it would be okay.
i found comfort in the dark
yet it’s your heart that scares me
i lost warmth in the light
but it’s your words that terrify me
our memory; is tainted
by beating lies
now that the baby is gone;
i saw your true colors,
& it’s not what i wanted
your hand reached for mine;
fingers danced like petals on a breezy day
up my arm down my forearm it’s all part of your charm.
it was a given;
that i couldn’t remember
every detail.
but fuck
did i try;;
it was the last drink
on the menu
a call out
to my last thought;
something so simple
that i’d wager
we don’t think about,
breathing;
i want you
to live
enjoy that drink
while you breathe
i don’t hate what you did
you can’t help it –
free swimmin’ being
comin’ into our lives just sightseeing
just to leave with a feeling
we’re just human beings.
i won’t hate
i understand
you stung me
& you fled away
i don’t believe
like i used to;
if you can strike down
the gardeners
who will tend to the garden
when the sun beats down
when crawlers feast on roots;
when you strike down the gardeners
who will watch over your tulip field
it’s hard to look you in the eyes
and tell you i failed
when all i want to do
is give you
something to be proud of