i never worried
just stayed up all night thinking
long Summer evening
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i never worried
just stayed up all night thinking
long Summer evening
you told me not to worry
about what tomorrow would be like
how we would eat
or how we would pay our bills.
even after you passed;
i always knew
you’d still be looking
over my shoulder
telling me
it would be okay.
i remember
very little;
i loved the way
you carried my memories –
but after a while
i guess
you got tired.
at our finger tips
something crystal clear
before man made smog
it was the light
from over the hills
no clouds; on the horizon
i found comfort in the dark
yet it’s your heart that scares me
i lost warmth in the light
but it’s your words that terrify me
our memory; is tainted
by beating lies
i remember
when everything was put together,
like the lego x-wing
before it crashed;
& fell to pieces.
now that the baby is gone;
i saw your true colors,
& it’s not what i wanted
your hand reached for mine;
fingers danced like petals on a breezy day
up my arm down my forearm it’s all part of your charm.
it’s not that i don’t trust you
i don’t trust myself
to see you
for what you do
not for what you say;
every lie is a dime out of my pocket
& out of ten-
i came up short
to pay
for the next.