chances are
i take a chance
on myself
for the first time;
i can remember the bad bets
they were never on the house
someone else’s
& they went bust
not this time
ill gamble on this pair
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chances are
i take a chance
on myself
for the first time;
i can remember the bad bets
they were never on the house
someone else’s
& they went bust
not this time
ill gamble on this pair
i see the demons
lurking
behind every devious
thought;
cursing me
reminding me
you can never out run
yourself
i never worried
just stayed up all night thinking
long Summer evening
you told me not to worry
about what tomorrow would be like
how we would eat
or how we would pay our bills.
even after you passed;
i always knew
you’d still be looking
over my shoulder
telling me
it would be okay.
i found comfort in the dark
yet it’s your heart that scares me
i lost warmth in the light
but it’s your words that terrify me
our memory; is tainted
by beating lies
now that the baby is gone;
i saw your true colors,
& it’s not what i wanted
your hand reached for mine;
fingers danced like petals on a breezy day
up my arm down my forearm it’s all part of your charm.
it was a given;
that i couldn’t remember
every detail.
but fuck
did i try;;
it was the last drink
on the menu
a call out
to my last thought;
something so simple
that i’d wager
we don’t think about,
breathing;
i want you
to live
enjoy that drink
while you breathe
his words carried further
deeper
on my way to heaven
please please please
let me hold on to
all of my
all of our memories
soaring higher than sora
to a kindom where our hearts
never die
please please please
on my
on our way to heaven