you laid awake
listening through the creaked window.
serenated by bellows of our regular alley cat.
sirens grow more and more distant.
wearily focused on a blank screen
waiting.
Tag: Writer
march 28th 2022
it was the night before;
the one you left in your rear view
driving 210 down main
but never went that fast for her.
memories are a crazy thing
one day they’re dreams
the next, nightmare
dread the night.
it was the week before;
like it was yesterday
tail lights chasing
fleeing
from a fear:
fear of leaving more bodies
alive dead npc
didn’t matter;
that life was messy-
-people got hurt,
-wake up.
this is real life,
it was only yesterd-
-that was three years ago
-this is real life,
-wake up.
Camp Wednesday
like a pitched tent-
we hide away:
can hear see smell taste the world
but they can’t touch what we have-
–
around a camp fire, we tell stories
snacks and a heap of pillows
lip service is on the clock
& weeks worth of sleep in an afternoon
–
i like to tell jokes
& you’re so beautiful when you laugh
you know what i like
such a good girl.
–
you’re different out there
& so am i
but here- we are one in the same
a founding titan
Clint E.
i use to wr-
i use to post a lot, small moments
covered in a scarf
or bundles of blankets
like a timeline of me.
& somewhere along the way
i started to take in
this negativity that spawned:
some from these memories
from the dread of time
the doubt i have over these dreams.
more input then
i could process
all the good the bad and the ugly.
if everything was put into a blender
mashed, spewed out of a topless container
caught in all of my gears
along my side
locked up
& eventually
my audience lost interest in my work-
myself.
so now
high noon
moon beaming down like a spotlight.
crisp evening air blows through a chipped scarf down to these worn denim.
whistles of a challenger:
matching gray python boots and pistol
all that’s left is a trail of smoke and an eye meeting mine.
he whispers, “Every gun makes its own tune”.
hurt feelings
it’s still early
have enough time to make it up
like late homework
ill blow it off
waste its time
lead them on
never commit
and disappoint my mother.
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hated the way we left that place
shredded into bits in an open can
cigarette ash
half emptied bottles
and a couple of new years hats:
they were home made,
blue and pink glitter
baby announcement decertations
unused still in the box
plastic top hats
from a younger time
in a box labeled ‘memories’,
new headwear acquired;
and we toasted
to a place
a new place
more fabulous
than these hats.
3am high conversations with the guys
as a man
as a person
as a living creature on this planet,
i believe
orange is an overhyped fruit.
no no
wait
listen
seriously
no come on seriously
the strawberry??
who gives a f-
the internet
they wished the worst on you
slip and fall
into a pool of your own blood
streaming from your diseased dreams
while your mother chokes
on her own shitty unseasoned cooking.
all for saying
you were excited for Moon Knight.
a little space
this little space
this little space that we carved out of wooden tools
this little space – is ours.
dingy dirty damp,
full of holes and ants in the summer
but it’s ours.
this little space
in outer space
they can see us dance
first time at second base
setting up our bookcase.
when we left
this little space
all that was left
some kid shoes, a needle and a jar of pickles,
this little place
has a lot of memories
packed in two separate cars.
birth certificate
future sight
is inexpensive
it only cost me
my youth
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