i found the answer
at the bottom of the bottle
like they all told me
the answer was;
keep diving
swim and swim
till standing feels like falling and falling is me with a helmet snorkeling in a tub filled with rubber duckies
and i can no longer stand
scraping the back of my leg
trying to climb back into my head
can feel me scaling my back like the side of a mountain
trying to get back into the command center – in the center of it all
watching as the brain dead empty vessel drowns himself
in peer acknowledgements
follow this at the top of his fingers
dancing quarters and flipping cups
beaten into a handstand submission
and a loud drive home,
Saint's Muse 