loving someone else is impossible
unless you love yourself first
Tag: Poetry
space in the world;
i find comfort in solace
to retreat to my corner write a rhyme
it is an organized crime, murder- right before bedtime
yet
solace is never kept lonely
i carved my space in this world built on fiction
i will not blame anyone for not being real
made it myself love the appeal
check on the time but that is not real
blood on the walls carved from stainless steel-
solace is my emergency contact
it knows i exist
just never picks up
yield sign re(move)d
we are worth more then one chance
i usually deploy a weak baseball rule
three strikes
but weak because i can never call anyone out
even when they deserve it-
bad shit comes in threes(bleed)
should have been a breeze(beast)
fucked around caught your disease(21)
you have been out for years
kept you around against my wishes
missed the days when it was simple
dimples and smiles got you in the door
war followed and never stopped-
honey dip ii
sometimes you just know-
i do not know how to explain it or to express or tell you to guess what it feels like
but i can feel it
in the tips of my fingers
it is you
the late nights the date nights the great fights
i only want that
with you
a show always getting a new season
no reboots maybe a spinoff
little jet on his own;
a show with its ups and downs but we hold strong
a model for those to say i want that
a jim and pam a marshall and lily tv sweethearts;
this script is tender and soft
but with you it is always right
burning in my chest i need you here
a cure but temporary need hourly doses
of your potion and you will always have roses
so you know that you are chosen
a star in the show, a star to me
nobody else fits that role
yesterday’s grave;
it is in our dna
like a skeleton in our closet-
we were made through violence
the quake in my clench fist
was the same in my past life;
it is not what i am here for
to lay down the sword and wield a shield like cap
i will use words to diffuse
this fuse and the only bomb that will drop
are f bombs to clear the fucking rubble
history only outlines today
but will still build an empire
an euphoria haven of shields
cutting fields of old patterns
burying violence in a grave marked yesterday
god of song
i prayed once-
like a message in a bottle i threw it in an ocean of many
they clinked together like after a toast-
or a prayer
i do not know if they will ever get to mine or which god answers the phone
maybe it is like the lotto system and we are all on hold
waiting for our number to be called like the dmv;
the bottle was ordinary but the paper was special
out of a journal with muses on the cover
thought they would get a laugh out of that-
whatever god; he she it just know i was in a dark place
darkened scribes on a windy night
saying hello to the moon inches from a fall-
i would not bother you guys
if it was not important
was hoping to get into the priority lane
but i have missed church a few hundred times so i get it
just need something to go right-
anything;
bottle(d) fury
challenge and admit
never one to quit
just on you-
on the full moon you showed your true colors
broken bottles fury nights slashing fights
knowing worth is not measure in dollars
just broken windshields
selling time:
chasing night and day
like a dog on the freeway
not after a bone
looking for something i found and not ready to give up
the time has not come
just a chase;
worth every drip of sweat
blisters and speed bump-
for when i catch you
time moves at a reverse pace
your hand pushes the clock backwards
and moves mine forward
towards her on the tip of her chin
lip breaches her timid skin
surprised i caught her
but the chase only made time more valuable
cozy k’night
she said she missed the old me-
the one with the funny jokes
and the unbreakable smile
never hanging from rope just above the tile
the version of you that never updated
who told stories of full hearts
standing- never wavered
now tells stories of death through fine arts
sit high like a king with his chalice
and below his subjects full of malice
switched from meat to salads
bought a case of m light and you were at wine palace
remember when we dropped acid-
where – did – you – go
( who walks in the shadows of your once peculiar self, the tepid demons haunt and talked their way into your skin to walk a path of coal never meant for your loving feet- they trashed you and colored your eyes green so you can profit and all i- we want is to banish and summon the cozy knight once more )
extended glamour:
i walk tenderly in this skin
never to crease it
waiting for someone else to pick it up
call tradesies
because this never felt like mine
never felt like i was issued the right one
a number waiting in line but they handed me the wrong one
but i took it anyway; a thief in the night
could not wait to play
i know it like the back of my hand
but nothing more then a rental
went to the dealer and all i needed was insurance
came with endurance not reassurance
i kept it clean
plenty of damage on the inside
but the outside is good
just some black eyes
should at least get the deposit back
Saint's Muse 