i wanted to believe you
see i can see the red in your cheeks
the fullness of your eyes
and the panting of your breath like you ran four blocks
uphill both ways through your ex’s arms to tell me
that it wasn’t like that
we are just friends-
three years trial and error
pickin’ up your baby daughter
been around nothin’ for a plotter
sippin’ tea more like toilet water.
Yet here in the rain
skeleton showing and your heart is the only thing pouring
and my heart is swollen
infected with your doubt
healed with your antibiotics
four doses of narcotics
itchin’ and you’re the one scratchin’
and I’m doing another line.
